Maybe I'm still an addict. Relaxation flips to panic mode if I can't find anything to drink in the fridge. But I've quit snorting pills, and it's been a while since I had to steal anything from anyone. Even Walmart.
I don't huff duster out of cans. I don't pass out anywhere I land, and I don't break shit on my way down. These days I go to bed. I still get the spins and my head still hurts, but at least there's nothing to blame it on but the booze.
It gets better. At least that's what they say. I'll take their word for it 'cause I still feel the same as I did back then. But everything else is changing.
Maybe I'm still a nutcase, certifiably insane, but all I want to do is wear short sleeves without the dirty glances. Everyone deserves another chance, even if they carved themselves like a turkey.
But I don't where jackets in July. I learned it's a stupid thing to lie about 'cause everybody already knows. So now I hide it in plain sight with fake confidence and awkward smiles every time I meet someone new.
It gets better. At least that's what they say. I'll take their word for it 'cause I still feel the same as I did back then. But everything else is changing.
Progress is progress, but I'm still taking baby steps. I won't be running marathons anytime soon. Maybe reality will never feel quite real to me, but I'm learning how to navigate my way through.
I don't wear jackets in July, and it's been a long time since I got high off anything stronger than weed. Sometimes I feel ok, and I made some new friends along the way who take me as I am and want nothing more. They might not understand, but I can call them up and we'll make plans. God Damn. It's kind of nice not to be so alone. There's no point to turn in yet. After all I've been through, I'm not dead yet. So I guess I gotta play this whole thing out.
It gets better. I know that's what they say. But take my word for it. Although you feel the same, everything else will change.
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